Showing posts with label Christian Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christian Life. Show all posts

Friday, January 6, 2012

A Prayer for Today



Each day a conscious decision to follow, to surrender, to give thanks, to give words to heart-cries.

                                                               A Prayer for Today:

             
   Lord, may prayer become again a conscious, living, 

                                                                            daily natural rhythm in my life.

                             May that prayer infuse home, marriage, thought and action.

                                                                  May it be living 

                                                                   and infectious......

                 May my children breathe it in like air and catch it.

                                                                   May it be sacred and precious

                                                                   Yet routine, set in stone, unchanging.

                Like breathing, let it come.

                                                                  May it be deep,

                                                                                        hopeful,

                                                                                                    truthful.

                May it be born out of a listening heart.


May your morning be filled with the expectation of good things and the experience of His unrelenting grace.


Thursday, January 5, 2012

When The Year Doesn't Turn Out The Way You Expected


Forgive the silence. 


It's been awhile.


It has taken sometime to find the words to make sense of the emotional roller-coaster that we as a family have experienced in the last year.


A post at the start of the new year seems fitting: a marker for myself; a symbolic statement that I am ready to engage again.


It has been over five years since I've experienced a northern hemisphere winter. Christmas' have been tropical affairs for us these last few years - barbecues, outdoor dining, shorts and T-shirts, and air-conditioning. It has been lovely to breathe in the frosty air and toast our toes by open fires for a change. I love the turning of the seasons and find it always speaks to me profoundly. 

I am a fascinated observer, watching as Winter strips the trees bare-naked, sharp twigs piercing blue-grey overcast skies, branches twisting and turning as bitter winds force them to bend and bow. I marvel as they remain unbroken, flexible, strong despite the unrelenting brute force of the windy gales. Occasionally, the skies break and rays of luminous light warm the cold; the sunlight painting landscapes in glittering shades of copper bronze and yellow gold - lifting spirits and turning the drab and dull into moments of eye-watering beauty. 



I find this a particularly apt symbol of my life as we leave 2011 behind and turn our eyes to a new year. I wish I could say that I have embraced the coming year full and excited at all that lies ahead. The truth is the rapid approach of the close of the year filled me with a dread that the no-man's land of  uncertainty we were in was no more likely to change as a new year began. I felt stripped bare - bereft of faith, of certainty and strength; I felt buffeted by the winds of circumstance with no clear compass or road map of what God was doing. I felt bent over and bowed down. But even in my frustration - I knew inside that I should be grateful, thankful for my many blessings; I should be thankful for the deep unshakeable knowledge that God is in control. Like the light that breaks in the midst of the grey and momentarily reminds us of the glory of nature - that felt knowledge of His unchanging nature  and the beauty of His perfect plan kept me and still keeps me going. I do believe the exquisite perfection of His timing and His purpose will eventually be revealed - but I must bend willingly and not fight and resist what He is doing.

2011 started with a decision to move countries - the timing was right and decisions were made. Our certainty and plans vanished when family illness forced us - almost immediately after our upheaval to a new country  - to abandon our plans and head to the UK for medical treatment. We left most of our personal possessions in storage because we didn't know where we'd be and for how long. All those shiny new homeschooling books I bought waiting to be unpacked, the kids bikes and scooters, the crates of gluten-free flours and products (bought because they were not easily available where we were settling), computers and precious photos....left behind. We had just what we could fit in a suitcase. To be honest, we didn't think we'd be gone this long - 4 months and counting with no definite idea of the whens and wheres. Had we heard wrong? What was God doing? How do we cope with this?


I'll have to admit to patchy sporadic bouts of homeschooling - with moving countries and medical emergencies, it was hard to carry on as normal. All this would, ever so occasionally, give rise to nights of panic and tears. Will my husband get better? How can I school my kids under these circumstances with no books, no fixed abode, constant displacement? Where are we supposed to settle now with no home of our own in any country? What is God's plan?

I'd love to say I met all this with serene grace and perfect trust in God's purpose and plan and to some extent, I think I can look back and say "Yes, I did meet every crazy twist and turn with equanimity and I did trust that all this will come to some greater purpose that would become clear to me - eventually."  But there were moments, no, more than moments, stretches of despondency, frustration and disappointment. Questions rising up ceaselessly - how long Lord?  All our plans put aside - for how long? The children's disrupted education - for how long? My husband's illness - how much longer? Living in a home that is not ours - for how long Lord? 


It was clear we wanted to make decisions that were wise and led by God but it was hard to hear and hard to be sure. Nothing seemed clear and clarity has not come with time - not yet. It seems that one-day-at a-time and trust are the themes of our new year. It is, I realise, the first year ever, where I literally have no plan for the year to come. No schedule for school, no plans for ministry, no important dates and appointments, no classes, nothing. This is because we can't plan - decisions have to be made around ever-changing health issues and we have no idea for now where the Lord wants us to be based in the medium term, let alone the long term.  We pray, answers tarry.


As I wake in the new year, it occurs to me - there is a lesson to be learnt. For the first time in my life, I can pray "Lord I have no plan (really) so show me yours." I have never ever been in this place - without an agenda. As a child - each school year was mapped out, maybe with vacations to look forward to, then came the years of work, weddings, marriage, children. When have I ever had a year where I had no plan?  This is not to say I have no desires. I have desires aplenty.

I want my husband well. I want him to be free of pain and strong.

I want a home, I want to be settled.
I want my stuff in storage.  
I want to homeschool.
I want to know EXACTLY where we are supposed to live and what we are supposed to do.
I want you to tell me straight Lord. I want certainty.

However, the
"I wants" fall to the ground as easily as autumn leaves are snatched off their boughs and tumble to the soil. 

The "
I wants" have nothing to hold onto. There is no certainty without Christ and I don't want to make mistakes by going my own way. I've spent so much of the last few months stating my "I wants" to God and finding myself crushed under the weight of my frustration and disappointment. I know He has a plan and a good purpose and maybe my "I wants" don't fit into those plans - not yet anyway. By His grace, He answered my feeble pleas to rescue me from my despondency and disappointment because I awoke to the new year with a desire to lay it all down and just seek Him. I know that desire comes only by His grace and not from me. I woke to the realisation that I was blessed - to enter this year unencumbered by expectation and plans and freed to choose Him. To choose the way of trust. What more did I have? But I saw I was blessed.  I would lay down my 'wants' and listen.

So begins the year of listening. The year of laying down. The year that I learn truly to trust. 


I would dearly love to go back to blogging about our homeschool adventures but it seems this pilgrim has another journey to make for now. 


The bible exhorts us in all things "GIve thanks." so I will give thanks, grateful for my many blessings of the last year:


1. for improvements in my husband's health 

2. prayers prayed to uphold us in our trials
3. for help from unexpected quarters
4. for financial stability
5. for cold weather to enjoy Christmas in
6. the joy of watching my children's faces as they saw snow for the first time
7. our first real bonfire in the garden
8. for family and opportunities to spend time with loved ones
9. for being together at Christmas 
10. friends made in the countries we have moved around in11. for a roof over our heads
12. for my favourite English desserts! and Custard!
13. for nature walks in autumnal weather
14. for the knowledge that God - you never let go of us.


Colossians 3:1-2 (The Message)


So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. 

Pursue the things over which Christ presides. 

Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you.

Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that's where the action is. 


See things from his perspective.




Friday, June 24, 2011

Teaching Worldview: Preparing my kids to understand their world



One of the advantages of homeschooling is the opportunity we have to step back from the traditional curriculum that schools follow and make time for discussions that will have an impact on our kids for the rest of their lives. Teaching my kids to think about life's big questions is one of the important strands I wanted to make sure I was weaving into our lives. I want them to understand that everyone has a view on these important questions and these will undoubtedly affect how they live their lives. My hope is that they will be able think through and understand what they believe and what they stand for, but not only that, I want them to realise that everyone has a worldview and appreciate where they are coming from. Once they have grasped those ideas, hopefully they will be able to critically wrestle with what they read and see in the media and to discern and perceive the worldviews behind the statements and rhetoric they will face each day.

This may be a tall order for young kids but it doesn't mean we can't start to lay a foundation that will help them as they grow up - and kids are growing up so fast these days. As a Christian family, we ultimately want them to have a living, truthful, intimate relationship with God and to fully grasp the foundations of their faith. We also hope to equip them not just with the knowledge of their faith and of other faiths or philosophies which people adhere to (consciously or not) but to enable them to walk with integrity and grace towards all people. 

So where do we start? 


First, we teach them our worldview:  this happens in part through our daily discussions during our family devotions - where we learn from the bible and tackle issues of right and wrong, what is good and bad, love and grace, life and death.

However, the real life lessons come from watching us live it out (or as the case may be - failing miserably to live it out) as role-models. I've come to accept that our failures are wonderful teaching opportunities - because even as they see us - as parents - fail, they also see us apologise, repent, resolve, struggle, and surrender. In seeing our imperfection and our response - they learn.


{I hope they learn that our knees should always be bent in humility and that our hands should be ceaselessly outstretched upwards to the one who is Grace and that our hearts can only survive if they flow with forgiveness.}

Secondly, we give them the big picture. Here I use two tools - Current Affairs: what is happening in the world today and structured study. 


I got a great idea from a veteran homeschooler to put a map in our home and talk constantly about current affairs. And as we talk about what is going on in the world, we mark the places in the map with newspaper articles or pictures of the leaders of the world. We should be talking about what is happening around the world and why, about leaders of countries, democracies and dictatorship, responsible government, about elections, ecosystems and economies. And after all that talk, what better thing to do than PRAY. It is an excellent way to teach our kids to be global thinkers, to always have the bigger view by looking at what is happening around us every day. Of course, what you choose to talk about will depend a great deal on the age of your kids but getting into the habit of talking about the world around us is a good start to them understanding our world and how it works as they get older and can address more complex issues. 

The second more obvious step is to undertake a structured study of worldviews. As we are at the beginning stages of our worldview studies with pre-teens - we have opted for an introductory course which I've found to be excellent. We are using The Young Historian's Introduction to Worldview by Brimwood Press. It is aimed at about grades 5-8 and is set out in a series of short chapters that have discussions and hands-on activities to aid understanding of big concepts like "What is a Worldview?", "What do all worldviews have in common?" and "How to Identify different worldviews?". You can read Cathy Duffy's review here. She makes a good point that although there is a subtle slant towards Christianity - the material itself can be used by families of different beliefs or philosophies as a foundational study for worldview as it takes a discovery and discussion approach to the subject. It is set out in four chapters but we have broken up each chapter into smaller more manageable portions within our time constraints. My book came with a bag of all the materials we would need for the hands-on activites which was wonderful. I can imagine that having to come up with the materials myself would have meant the book sitting on the shelf unused for quite a while.

When we complete this study, I plan to move on to a study of Christian apologetics - laying out the foundations, evidence and reasonableness of our personal faith. I haven't yet found a curriculum per se but intend to use some of the following books as a basis for our study. These will cover evidence for faith in Christ and deal with big questions like "Why does God allow suffering?", "Is God good?" or "Do all religions lead to God?" and so on.

Searching Issues: The Most Common Questions Encountered in the Search for Faith (Alpha)The New Evidence That Demands A Verdict Fully Updated To Answer The Questions Challenging Christians TodayCase for Christ for Kids, Updated and Expanded (Case for... Series for Kids)Don't Check Your Brains at the Door: A Book of Christian Evidences (Know What You Believe and Why)


I am also looking at curriculum and books from Summit Ministries - they have a whole range of interesting books catering to elementary students to High schoolers. I have ordered their Lightbearers study for middle-schoolers as it looked very helpful and thorough (although I have not actually looked at the full content or used it as yet). It is said to cover the tenets of the Christian faith and compares them with leading humanistic worldviews, teaches the student how to apply their faith to all ares of life from ethics, law, politics, history, economics and so on. It also deals with issues like abortion, relativism, relationships, cults and pluralism.

Finally, working on teaching logic and critical thinking is another important aspect of teaching our kids to think. It is an issue of teaching kids HOW to think not just What to think. I think this requires the parent to allow and encourage questions (even when it can get a little tiresome or when you may not necessarily have the answers and especially when it starts to tread ground on areas you might not feel so comfortable with). The temptation is often to tell them the answer rather than explore and guide them to the answer but I think the process of helping them make the connections themselves is a good basis for their future critical thinking. It is useful to ask them open-ended questions, sometimes playing devil's advocate or at least helping them to see things from different perspectives. I think active listening and encouraging them to be real and voice their doubts, concerns or confusion is supremely important. Kids get very good at giving the answer that is expected from them and it takes patience and wisdom to draw out how they really feel. 



In terms of material that one can use for critical thinking and teaching logic - I like the look of this series very much:

The Thinking Toolbox: Thirty-five Lessons That Will Build Your Reasoning Skills The Fallacy Detective: Thirty-Eight Lessons on How to Recognize Bad Reasoning
    
This is but one layer in equipping our kids to go into the world with all the tools they will need to understand the world around them, to stand firm in their values and beliefs and to be able to  communicate effective, clearly and compassionately. There are many other layers that prepare a child to face their futures with confidence - love, grace, healthy relationships, wisdom, life skills and academic training - all of which are equally important. Every parent wants to prepare their child to live to their fullest potential and for them to stand for what they believe, and I believe that this is one essential key for helping them do that.                         

Friday, February 25, 2011

Life is not a series of tasks to be accomplished


A golden note of misty light quietly slips through the velvet-black night; noisy birdsong dips and rolls through not-quite morning air. Into my slowly-waking heart, His whisper settles in me:


Life is not a series of tasks to be fulfilled.
It is to be lived and savoured, held close - filled with space and grace – space enough to respond to My call - no matter how inconvenient it may be when it comes.

Oh how well you know me, Father - even half awake you know my mind is already filled with things to do and achieve today, lists to check off. You know how easy it is for me to be structured, maybe even too rigid. How I feel happiest when my list all accomplished. Words that could almost define me - discipline, efficiency, focus...."Come on....time is ticking away", "Hurry up!".


But at the expense of what (or whom)? Are there feelings I have steam-rolled over, children I have nagged and harassed, precious moments I have failed to enjoy in order to finish the task?

Your words of encouragement flow through me -  Life is for living:

When your son builds a fort and wants you to play even though you are in the middle of your devotions.

When your children need a snuggle just when you are desperately trying to answer all your long overdue emails.

To dance in the rain when you are supposed to be cooking dinner.

To watch a movie with the family even though they really should be in bed.

To take your time over a piece of work that you are all interested in even when the schedule tells us it's time to move on.

To lay on the floor and eat cookies, listening to music when the laundry needs doing.

Taking the day off to visit the museum or swim in the pool when there is still much to be done.

To sit and enjoy being with your husband, not rushing to put the kids to sleep.

To embrace life's bumps, surprises, mistakes and allow them to be fertiliser for learning and growth.



Life is for living not just for getting through or surviving.

Sometimes we just have to survive - I know that - I've lived it. But so much more is given to us; a life to embrace even with all its thorns and cut-glass edges. We may bleed but if we feel and live grateful and find peace in the small things, we'll find God: open-armed, smiling, delighting in us. In me. In you.

So today I pray - 

 " I surrender. I surrender my need to control, to have things run according to schedule, to count my worth by what I've achieved each day. I choose to live  - not just survive. I want to learn to be."

As I open my eyes, I see a new day has dawned - brilliant blue streaked with fresh linen-white clouds, mellow golden morning-light dancing off the the tips of towering jade-green trees. I am reminded of this verse from His word: 
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.  Lamentations 3:22-24
Thankful for new mornings, I start today.




  

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Losing one's way: the road to perspective

 "Mummy, try not to be too stressed." 
My elder daughter looks at me with a worried frown on her face. 

Am I stressed? Have I been yelling again? Have I misplaced the joy of being here - present - alive? 

I have to take deep breath.

"I'm sorry." This is all I know to say when I realise that I've lost my way - again. When was the last time I laughed with my kids?


I need perspective, I need to step back. 


I need to remember why I'm doing this: homeschooling, juggling family and work. It seems to always be about trying to prioritise the right thing -  time with God, my husband, my kids; or trying to catch up on things - reading, administration, sleep, life...



Sometimes we all need to look up from our ceaseless tasks and perceive the landscape of our lives and make sure we haven't taken a wrong turn and ended up entangled and so far removed from our original path that we don't even know how we got there.



I'm a do-er, a planner and a tick-off-my-list kinda girl - so it is really easy for me to get caught up in the day to day busy-ness of homeschooling and lists of to-do's. I focus on the tasks and not on the present. I miss out on little smiles, tender hugs, whispered secrets, silly jokes. I lose my grace and end up frazzled, grumpy, stressed out and just no-fun at all. My brokenness emerges and I am undone by my lack.



So when my daughter looks at me with her big eyes and rubs my back in concern - I know I need to stop:  to take refuge and check in with God, to allow him to draw me back and restore my soul. 


Our recent family devotions have been spent doing a study about becoming a woman of excellence and through our discussions one thing stood out clearly to me. In order to pursue excellence - we need to know what it is we are striving for. We need goals and a vision. I realised I needed a new vision for our family - no, wait - we needed a shared vision for our family.


At the beginning of the year, the girls and I made a list of goals - it included things like learning how to sew, how to ride a wave board, how to play the guitar, being on time for family devotions, sleeping earlier and exercising more. As we talked about how we did on these goals - we were pleased to see that we'd accomplished many of these goals. We also realised that if we hadn't articulated these goals, we would never have taken the necessary steps to achieve them. For example: because the girls expressed their desire to learn how to sew - and being deficient in that skill myself - I sought out a sewing teacher and opportunities for them to learn how to sew. The result was some beautiful bags and two glorious medieval costumes for our end of term medieval feast celebration. 




So with the Christmas season fast bearing down upon us, I thought the year's end would be the ideal time to take stock and talk about our hopes, desires and goals. It is a great way to check in with each other and ourselves, to make sure we are going in the direction we want to. So over these next few weeks, we will be working on a Family Mission Statement as well as our goals for us as a family and for ourselves individually. 


We spent the last week or so talking about the things that we want for our family. We began with a time of prayer and worship and invited Christ into our discussions and everyone had a chance to talk about things we'd loved to be doing as a family - practical things like getting back to regular games nights and about parents not using the phones during what is supposed to be family time (oops!). We got to heart issues as well - like the way we talk to each other and how that makes us feel, the need for more patience and consideration to one another. We reflected on how we could ensure that Christ was at the heart of our family and how we could impact the lives of people around us with grace and blessing.


After all the talking, we got to work on creating a Family Mission Statement - something that would reflect who we are and who we want to be as a family.  We got the whiteboard out and started a mindmap of ideas.






Out of this, we saw where we wanted to be in relation to God, to one another and to the world outside our family.



It is a wonderful thing to have at the forefront of my mind as I go through each day - it reminds me of my purpose as I mother and school my children.  I love that Christ infuses our hopes and dreams for our family. It feels like a marker for our journey - something that will keep us grounded and on course. So when the day spins out of control and all my best laid plans crumble under the weight of real life, when I am tempted to lash out, lose it, lay down in defeat and cry, I look to His grace and return to our vision and remember... 











Our Family Mission Statement


We choose to keep Christ first and foremost in our hearts and our home. We echo Joshua’s words “As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”

We choose to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness in order to create time and space to be in God’s beautiful presence, to receive daily strength from the Holy Spirit and to bear his fruit through grace-filled lives.

We want our family to be unified in love and appreciation, in understanding and care for each other.
We desire our home to be a refuge and a safe place where we are loved unconditionally for who we are, where our failures and mistakes are forgiven and our dreams and aspirations find their wings.  No one will be left behind or ignored and our purpose is to build each other up, not to tear down.

We desire that our home will be a welcoming place for all – that all who enter our home will breathe in an atmosphere of holy laughter, joyful peace and loving acceptance.

We choose not to ignore the needs of others, to give of ourselves generously and sacrificially, to strive always to see others with the eyes of Jesus.

We want to learn to be available to God and to respond to his prompting so that we may be vessels of blessing.

We do all this so that we may live lives worthy of the calling we have received, that we may be completely humble and gentle, always patient in bearing with one another in love. We choose to make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.





The most wasted of all days is one without laughter. ~e.e. cummings





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